( he persists, because he doesn't know what else to do otherwise. he persists, pursues his beloved no matter where he goes, relentless, tireless, hunting down his ex because he knows something has broken in him that has never been mended. so he pushes, weasels his way in by any means necessary.
finally, he finds him, and they do what they always do — fighting, fucking, biting and scratching, and jing yuan bears the weight of yingxing's pain and rage and grief, and he loves him through it all. now, when they lie together after the crescendo of their shared passion, he clings to him, unhappy and upset at being told to leave.
the tears are warm on his cheeks; he's tired, so tired of being pushed away by his beloved, and he reaches out to him, grasping yingxing's hand. yingxing, always yingxing; he remains the man he loves, no matter what. is it selfish? yes, oh, yes. but jing yuan loves him beyond anything else. )
How can I, my love, when I vowed to be with you for better or worse? You are the one I've promised my life to, and you are the only one I ever want. Why do you continue to run from me?
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finally, he finds him, and they do what they always do — fighting, fucking, biting and scratching, and jing yuan bears the weight of yingxing's pain and rage and grief, and he loves him through it all. now, when they lie together after the crescendo of their shared passion, he clings to him, unhappy and upset at being told to leave.
the tears are warm on his cheeks; he's tired, so tired of being pushed away by his beloved, and he reaches out to him, grasping yingxing's hand. yingxing, always yingxing; he remains the man he loves, no matter what. is it selfish? yes, oh, yes. but jing yuan loves him beyond anything else. )
How can I, my love, when I vowed to be with you for better or worse? You are the one I've promised my life to, and you are the only one I ever want. Why do you continue to run from me?