[ no, vulnerability has never been easy for ren, even before prison tore him apart. he was always an outcast, developing an arrogant, boisterous shell to protect himself with, rarely discussing his insecurities even with his husband, despite their deep trust.
and now? now, talking feels like pulling his own teeth out. impossible. excruciating. how can he tell jing yuan everything that happened? how horrible it had all been? how much it had changed him? he can't, and so he simply leans into his beloved, pressing his face into jing yuan's shoulder, holding tightly to him. though tears sting his eyes and his throat constricts with emotion, he does not know how to allow himself to cry. ]
.. I promise.
[ he says softly, closing his burning eyes, gulping in a shuddering breath. ]
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and now? now, talking feels like pulling his own teeth out. impossible. excruciating. how can he tell jing yuan everything that happened? how horrible it had all been? how much it had changed him? he can't, and so he simply leans into his beloved, pressing his face into jing yuan's shoulder, holding tightly to him. though tears sting his eyes and his throat constricts with emotion, he does not know how to allow himself to cry. ]
.. I promise.
[ he says softly, closing his burning eyes, gulping in a shuddering breath. ]