( it's not drugs; it's something even more horrific, something more awful and dark and terrible, its shadow cast over their marriage. jing yuan doesn't wait for him to finish, and he reaches out, grasping his chin to tip his face to his, forcing his expression to be steady even if his heart is breaking inside.
no matter how strong they are, there are forces out there in the world that will tear them down, and yingxing has experienced enough. he reaches for his hand, threading his fingers through it and leaning forward to press his forehead to his. to think that he's carrying the horror of this violation alone, this profound, aching pain that will not be relieved, reminded of it every single day. )
Oh... my darling, my love. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. ( he presses up against him and takes him into an embrace, holding him close. he wants to carry his pain for him, the burden of this sin, and he nuzzles into him. no more, he doesn't need him to say it out loud. )
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no matter how strong they are, there are forces out there in the world that will tear them down, and yingxing has experienced enough. he reaches for his hand, threading his fingers through it and leaning forward to press his forehead to his. to think that he's carrying the horror of this violation alone, this profound, aching pain that will not be relieved, reminded of it every single day. )
Oh... my darling, my love. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. ( he presses up against him and takes him into an embrace, holding him close. he wants to carry his pain for him, the burden of this sin, and he nuzzles into him. no more, he doesn't need him to say it out loud. )