[ Ren isn't the only one who feels dizzy. Dan Heng hasn't kissed that many people before, and it's easy to find herself swallowed up by the sensations, to kiss until she can't breathe (because she's forgotten to), to gasp for air when the other whispers against her mouth.
The question is molten against her lips, earning a nod, a breathless little sound of agreement. Later, she'll tell her that there was never any question, that she was always going to say yes—that Ren was always going to be hers the moment she wanted to be, just like Dan Heng has always, always been Ren's—but for now, that breathless sound is all she gets as the younger woman shuffles in closer, sighs at the taste of her tongue, curls her arm tighter around her shoulders even as the fingers of her other hand hold tight.
Dan Heng really wants this. She's really wanted this for a while. And Ren...
Well, if there were any lingering doubts left, they're gone now. Dan Heng finds herself smiling into their kiss, content even as her blood pulses hot through her veins. ]
[ ren can't get over how dizzyingly good dan heng tastes and feels, how amazing she sounds, breathless and gasping like that, sighing between every kiss as she holds tightly to ren's shoulders like she needs her to breathe. this is all she's wanted since not long after they met, since ren was immediately enamoured with her - her cute looks first, then all the rest of her soon after.
and somehow, they're still not close enough. still not near enough.
the kiss deepens, intensifies, the two of them devouring one another whole. ren laps at her mouth, tracing her teeth and tasting her tongue, humming low in her chest as her entire body shudders.
at last, her hands begin to travel. she tries to behave herself as best as she can, but she needs to touch dan heng, even just a little. ren's hands map out her shape, sliding down her sides and over the swell of her hips, one slipping beneath the back of her shirt to palm at her skin and gods, it's just as soft as she knew it would be. ]
[ Dan Heng sighs once more against Ren's mouth, her arms wrapping that little more tightly, not realizing what each of her breaths and movements is doing to the other woman—neither possessing quite enough presence of mind to control her situation even if she did. With her own relative inexperience in mind, she's terrified of getting lost in this, and the last thing she wants is to lay there like a deer in headlights while Ren pleases her.
No, Dan Heng wants Ren to know just how much she also is wanted. Which means that for these first few moments, perhaps ironically, there's little for her to do but cling and grasp like Ren is the only person in her world... and breathe, desperately trying to get herself grounded. ]
Ren—
[ It's gasped out just as the other woman's hands start to move, sliding down over Dan Heng's sides and her hips, touching bare skin in a way that makes the younger feel like she's being shocked by pure electricity, in the best of ways—
Is there even a good way to be shocked by electricity? Aeons, she's going insane...
With a soft, shaky sigh, Dan Heng pulls back just enough to shift herself atop Ren, legs caging the other woman's in as she looks down at her in silence for just a moment. ]
In case you didn't know, I'm already yours. I have been for a long time now.
[ when dan heng whines her name like that it's like an electric shock down her spine, but she worries for a moment that she's gone a little too far, that she's pushed too fast by touching her, but then dan heng is turning her onto her back, straddling her hips and looking down at her -
she looks like a goddess, flush-faced and needy, her dark hair wreathing her beautiful face. ren stares, slack-jawed for a moment, desirous and in awe.
but then dan heng speaks, and she exhales softly around a smile. ]
.. you have no idea how long I've wanted to hear that.
[ ren's hands smooth over the tops of dan heng's bare thighs, before one rises to cup her cheek, looking into her beautiful teal eyes that shine brightly even in the afternoon light. ]
[ She won't explain. It's obvious enough, probably, what it was that's been holding her back all this time—what has been, it seems, holding both of them back despite both wanting the same thing. She smiles, the expression soft and shy, and leans down over Ren, brushing her lips against the other woman's in a brief kiss. ]
Should we turn the movie off? The truth is, I'm kind of crazy about you too. I'd rather not find myself distracted by one of those silly action scenes when I should be focusing on you...
[ Her cheeks warm again even as she says it. She's not good at this, but... she also wants to make sure that Ren knows she means it, really means it. After seeing her nervousness earlier, her worry her feelings wouldn't be returned... ]
[ ren's hand scrambles across the bedding, finding the remote control where they'd left it, and quickly shutting off the television, plunging the room into silence punctuated only by their heavy breathing. ]
I'm all yours, now.
[ no distractions. nothing else. just the two of them, and the breaking of this tension that's been hanging on too long. ]
[ With the room in silence again, Dan Heng unwinds her leg from Ren and moves to lie next to her again, reaching out to run fingers down the side of the other's face. ]
You look beautiful, Ren.
[ It's a sweet whisper, one that Dan Heng follows by reaching to remove her glasses, putting them aside before she moves to rest her head against the other woman's, forehead to forehead once more. ]
I'm sorry I made you wait. I just... I was afraid to hope you might mean it.
[ dan heng settles down beside her again, and ren misses the warm weight of her, and the excellent view, but this is excellent, too - just having dan heng close, warm and soft and pliant and perfect..
grinning, ren runs her thumb along dan heng's lower lip. ]
Hey, you don't have to be sorry. I know how I come off.
[ she chuckles, wriggling in closer, tangling their legs together. ]
[ Dan Heng just smiles, shakes her head as Ren's thumb runs along her lower lip, as the older girl tangles their legs together. In hindsight, maybe Ren was obvious, but... ]
Now that I look at it, maybe. But I...
[ She shakes her head. ]
I'm more of a coward than you. I was too scared to risk it. You're so beautiful and popular, I couldn't imagine how you'd...
[ And Dan Heng trails off, wrinkling her nose in embarrassment and frustration. How does she explain it? ]
[ ren shakes her head, unable to hold back a soft laugh. ]
You're not a coward, Danbao, you're an idiot.
[ she says helpfully, grinning, then leans in to kiss her again, one hand smoothing down her back while the other slides into her hair, her knee pushing between dan heng's warm thighs. she hums, low and soft and appreciative, nipping at dan heng's lower lip, whispering against it. ]
You're smart, brave, loyal, gorgeous.. what more could I ever want?
[ Her lips part, a protest on her tongue when Ren calls her an idiot, but any form of complaint is ended by the press of the other's mouth to hers again, Dan Heng answering the kiss with a sigh, legs parting a little to give Ren the access she seeks with the press of her knee. A shudder of pleasure runs down her spine as the other woman whispers into her mouth, nipping at her lower lip, her own hands moving to rest at Ren's sides. ]
Mmn. You can say that, but you, Ren... you're so perfect. Haven't you seen the way everyone looks at you?
[ How would someone like Ren look at her, when she had some of the most amazing people on campus eyeing her, chasing after her? ]
Every time I saw you with someone, it was someone else as perfect as you are. I didn't think I could even start to measure up.
Pfft. I have big tits and a nice ass. That's why people look at me the way that they do.
[ and anyone can look good if they try - the right clothes, the right makeup - but it's all physical. dan heng has that and more. ]
And hey, don't talk about my girlfriend that way.
[ she teases, smiling as she rubs their noses together, kissing the corner of dan heng's mouth, then along her jawline, slow and soft, savoring each kiss. ]
[ Dan Heng looks up at Ren in quiet shock when the other scolds her, teases her. The blush still ever-present on her cheeks since their first kiss, darkens, and she closes her eyes against those kisses, tilting her head back with a soft, embarrassed whine on her lips. ]
Girlfriend...?
[ Her fingers reach, stroke down over Ren's cheek, eyes searching the other's face. ]
That was kinda sudden of you, huh...
[ But it's a smile on her lips, curling the corners despite herself even as she tries to hide it. ]
Well, I mean, you said that you were mine, and that you'd go out with me..
[ ren hums, lifting her head to meet dan heng's eyes, much as she wants to keep kissing her, her mouth, her jaw, her throat - she looks into her face instead. ]
.. unless you're saying you meant that in a besties, girls being girls sort of way, hmm?
[ you know, besties who kiss and shower together. ]
[ Ren repeats words that Dan Heng barely remembers saying. Her cheeks catch fresh heat, and she looks up at the other, biting her lower lip as she slowly starts to put two and two together, to realize what she agreed to in the midst of...
Shyly, she laughs, and turns to press her head into Ren's shoulder. ]
I... I'm not unhappy about it. Somehow I just didn't quite... realize we agreed to that. I was... I was caught up in the whole thing. In... in you, I guess. So I didn't... ah.
[ She blinks as she watches the look on Ren's face change, recognizes the concern and the worry starting to settle on her features—this time, it's Dan Heng's heart that sinks in her chest. ]
Wait, no—
[ The last thing she wants is for the other to think she's doubting this, that she's hesitant. She might be awful at this whole thing, but she's not doubting anything, as much as it might sound like she is, so... ]
You're not pushing me. I want this.
[ The fingers of both hands reach up, cupping Ren's cheeks in answer. ]
I'm sorry. I haven't... I've never really... done anything like this before. Been... involved with anyone. So I'm... I guess I'm out of practice.
[ relief spreads across ren's features just as quickly as the worry had set in. ]
.. okay. Heh.
[ her smile blooms warm across her face when dan heng's hands cup her cheeks, her fiery eyes soft around the edges. she hums, low and easy, and turns her head to press kisses into dan heng's palm. ]
I'll make it clear, then. I want you to be my girlfriend.
[ she says softly, nudging their noses together with warm affection. ]
Exclusively. No one else. No more flirting. Just you and me.
[ Ren reacts with relief, with sweetness, and Dan Heng finds herself smiling at the relief on the other's face, a soft sigh on her lips as kisses are pressed into her palm, as their noses are nudged together. ]
Okay.
[ It's a simple answer, whispered in response as her fingers curl around Ren's. ]
I'll be your girlfriend, Ren.
[ Exclusively. No one else. Just the two of them. ]
[ she says, then grins and surges forward, pushing dan heng down onto her back and rolling on top of her with a laugh, before seeking her mouth in another kiss. a warm, wanting, forward kiss, with her arms tightly around dan heng's slim body, hugging her close. ]
Oh.. and -
[ she pauses, pulls back to look down at dan heng, her face flushed warm, hair wild around her shoulders. ]
.. that goes for everything physical, too. Anything beyond kissing, hugging - that's all yours to tell me your comfort level, okay? If I'm your first.. I want everything to be in your hands.
[ She finds herself laughing, a natural response to the bright warmth in Ren's voice as she surges forward and rolls onto her. Her arms circle the other woman's shoulders, holding her close as she responds to the kiss with a warm press of her own mouth, sighing against her lips.
It's enough that there's a slight jut of her lower lip when Ren pulls back, although the words that follow explain, make Dan Heng tilt her head with a tender understanding, fingers lifting to brush that wild hair back as she smiles, fond. ]
Yeah, [ she says. ] You're my first. And... when it comes to that, you will be my first, too. But... I trust you, Ren. If something's too much, I promise I'll tell you. Is that okay?
[ ah, that cute little pout. ren could kiss it right off of her mouth. ]
Yeah. That's okay.
[ whatever's easiest for dan heng. whatever makes her comfortable. if she would rather ren take the lead for now and speak up when it goes too far, then that's fine, that's what they'll do.
so she dips down again to pick up where she left off, kissing dan heng fully and completely, humming quietly as she parts her lips to deepen the kiss, confident now as she coaxes dan heng's lips apart to taste her again. ]
[ She's feeling more confident now. In herself, in knowing that Ren knows what she wants...
Dan Heng's lips part under Ren's, a sigh on her mouth as she wraps her arms more tightly around her, as she curls her fingers through the other's beautiful, wild hair. There's still the salty taste of popcorn on her lips, but more than that there's something sweet, something Dan Heng doesn't think she'll be able to get enough of chasing after. ]
You're... mn.
[ A soft sigh of pleasure as Dan Heng relaxes, sinks into the mattress. ]
[ and just like that, the mood shifts from light and playful to something a little deeper, more warm and thick and sensual. they kiss slowly, but deeply, exploring one another's mouths unhurriedly, learning their shapes, their textures, their flavors. dan heng tastes just as ren had thought she would, gentle and sweet, but crisp, like fresh rain, and she can't get enough of it. ]
I'm.. what? Mmm..?
[ she hums between kisses, smiling, kissing her again, again. ren's hands move, smoothing down dan heng's sides, over her hips, up again, thumbing beneath the hem of her shirt as their bodies settle comfortably together, hips aligning.
she won't push too much. she shouldn't. dan heng is a virgin, and gods, ren has wanted her for so long now, but she doesn't want to spook her, doesn't want to expect too much too fast. but some touching.. that should be all right. if it isn't, dan heng will tell her so. breaking the kiss, ren drags her mouth along dan heng's jaw, kissing a line down the side of her tender throat while her hands slip beneath her shirt. not high. just feeling her sides. her warm skin. ]
[ Dan Heng sighs in content, in pleasure in response to the way Ren deepens their kiss, the way things slowly change from playful and sweet to something more. Their explorations may be unhurried, but they're enough to take her breath away, leaving her gusting short, breathy sighs against the other's mouth as their hips come together.
She's... something. Dan Heng knew she had something to say... but she forgets, and she's not sure it matters in the wake of this anyway. She's not sure anything matters compared to the feelings of those hands sliding over her sides, slipping under her shirt so Ren's fingers can touch bare skin—
(A shudder of pleasure, Dan Heng's head tipping back slightly, allowing the other all the more space to kiss along her jaw, her throat.)
And yes, she'll tell her if it's too much, but how can anything be too much? Dan Heng wants everything, wants to experience everything Yingxing wants to give her— ]
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The question is molten against her lips, earning a nod, a breathless little sound of agreement. Later, she'll tell her that there was never any question, that she was always going to say yes—that Ren was always going to be hers the moment she wanted to be, just like Dan Heng has always, always been Ren's—but for now, that breathless sound is all she gets as the younger woman shuffles in closer, sighs at the taste of her tongue, curls her arm tighter around her shoulders even as the fingers of her other hand hold tight.
Dan Heng really wants this. She's really wanted this for a while. And Ren...
Well, if there were any lingering doubts left, they're gone now. Dan Heng finds herself smiling into their kiss, content even as her blood pulses hot through her veins. ]
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and somehow, they're still not close enough. still not near enough.
the kiss deepens, intensifies, the two of them devouring one another whole. ren laps at her mouth, tracing her teeth and tasting her tongue, humming low in her chest as her entire body shudders.
at last, her hands begin to travel. she tries to behave herself as best as she can, but she needs to touch dan heng, even just a little. ren's hands map out her shape, sliding down her sides and over the swell of her hips, one slipping beneath the back of her shirt to palm at her skin and gods, it's just as soft as she knew it would be. ]
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No, Dan Heng wants Ren to know just how much she also is wanted. Which means that for these first few moments, perhaps ironically, there's little for her to do but cling and grasp like Ren is the only person in her world... and breathe, desperately trying to get herself grounded. ]
Ren—
[ It's gasped out just as the other woman's hands start to move, sliding down over Dan Heng's sides and her hips, touching bare skin in a way that makes the younger feel like she's being shocked by pure electricity, in the best of ways—
Is there even a good way to be shocked by electricity? Aeons, she's going insane...
With a soft, shaky sigh, Dan Heng pulls back just enough to shift herself atop Ren, legs caging the other woman's in as she looks down at her in silence for just a moment. ]
In case you didn't know, I'm already yours. I have been for a long time now.
[ And she leans down to kiss her again. ]
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she looks like a goddess, flush-faced and needy, her dark hair wreathing her beautiful face. ren stares, slack-jawed for a moment, desirous and in awe.
but then dan heng speaks, and she exhales softly around a smile. ]
.. you have no idea how long I've wanted to hear that.
[ ren's hands smooth over the tops of dan heng's bare thighs, before one rises to cup her cheek, looking into her beautiful teal eyes that shine brightly even in the afternoon light. ]
I'm so crazy about you..
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[ She won't explain. It's obvious enough, probably, what it was that's been holding her back all this time—what has been, it seems, holding both of them back despite both wanting the same thing. She smiles, the expression soft and shy, and leans down over Ren, brushing her lips against the other woman's in a brief kiss. ]
Should we turn the movie off? The truth is, I'm kind of crazy about you too. I'd rather not find myself distracted by one of those silly action scenes when I should be focusing on you...
[ Her cheeks warm again even as she says it. She's not good at this, but... she also wants to make sure that Ren knows she means it, really means it. After seeing her nervousness earlier, her worry her feelings wouldn't be returned... ]
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[ ren's hand scrambles across the bedding, finding the remote control where they'd left it, and quickly shutting off the television, plunging the room into silence punctuated only by their heavy breathing. ]
I'm all yours, now.
[ no distractions. nothing else. just the two of them, and the breaking of this tension that's been hanging on too long. ]
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You look beautiful, Ren.
[ It's a sweet whisper, one that Dan Heng follows by reaching to remove her glasses, putting them aside before she moves to rest her head against the other woman's, forehead to forehead once more. ]
I'm sorry I made you wait. I just... I was afraid to hope you might mean it.
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grinning, ren runs her thumb along dan heng's lower lip. ]
Hey, you don't have to be sorry. I know how I come off.
[ she chuckles, wriggling in closer, tangling their legs together. ]
Still, I thought I was pretty obvious.
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Now that I look at it, maybe. But I...
[ She shakes her head. ]
I'm more of a coward than you. I was too scared to risk it. You're so beautiful and popular, I couldn't imagine how you'd...
[ And Dan Heng trails off, wrinkling her nose in embarrassment and frustration. How does she explain it? ]
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[ ren shakes her head, unable to hold back a soft laugh. ]
You're not a coward, Danbao, you're an idiot.
[ she says helpfully, grinning, then leans in to kiss her again, one hand smoothing down her back while the other slides into her hair, her knee pushing between dan heng's warm thighs. she hums, low and soft and appreciative, nipping at dan heng's lower lip, whispering against it. ]
You're smart, brave, loyal, gorgeous.. what more could I ever want?
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Mmn. You can say that, but you, Ren... you're so perfect. Haven't you seen the way everyone looks at you?
[ How would someone like Ren look at her, when she had some of the most amazing people on campus eyeing her, chasing after her? ]
Every time I saw you with someone, it was someone else as perfect as you are. I didn't think I could even start to measure up.
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[ and anyone can look good if they try - the right clothes, the right makeup - but it's all physical. dan heng has that and more. ]
And hey, don't talk about my girlfriend that way.
[ she teases, smiling as she rubs their noses together, kissing the corner of dan heng's mouth, then along her jawline, slow and soft, savoring each kiss. ]
She measures up, and then some.
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Girlfriend...?
[ Her fingers reach, stroke down over Ren's cheek, eyes searching the other's face. ]
That was kinda sudden of you, huh...
[ But it's a smile on her lips, curling the corners despite herself even as she tries to hide it. ]
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[ ren hums, lifting her head to meet dan heng's eyes, much as she wants to keep kissing her, her mouth, her jaw, her throat - she looks into her face instead. ]
.. unless you're saying you meant that in a besties, girls being girls sort of way, hmm?
[ you know, besties who kiss and shower together. ]
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Shyly, she laughs, and turns to press her head into Ren's shoulder. ]
I... I'm not unhappy about it. Somehow I just didn't quite... realize we agreed to that. I was... I was caught up in the whole thing. In... in you, I guess. So I didn't... ah.
[ Aeons, this is embarrassing. ]
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she pulls back, then gently cups dan heng's cheek, turning her face toward her. ]
.. hey. We don't have to - I mean.. if you don't want to..
[ ren shakes her head, her brow drawn together. maybe she jumped the gun, pulled for too much too fast. ]
I'm not going to push you into anything, okay?
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Wait, no—
[ The last thing she wants is for the other to think she's doubting this, that she's hesitant. She might be awful at this whole thing, but she's not doubting anything, as much as it might sound like she is, so... ]
You're not pushing me. I want this.
[ The fingers of both hands reach up, cupping Ren's cheeks in answer. ]
I'm sorry. I haven't... I've never really... done anything like this before. Been... involved with anyone. So I'm... I guess I'm out of practice.
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.. okay. Heh.
[ her smile blooms warm across her face when dan heng's hands cup her cheeks, her fiery eyes soft around the edges. she hums, low and easy, and turns her head to press kisses into dan heng's palm. ]
I'll make it clear, then. I want you to be my girlfriend.
[ she says softly, nudging their noses together with warm affection. ]
Exclusively. No one else. No more flirting. Just you and me.
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Okay.
[ It's a simple answer, whispered in response as her fingers curl around Ren's. ]
I'll be your girlfriend, Ren.
[ Exclusively. No one else. Just the two of them. ]
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[ she says, then grins and surges forward, pushing dan heng down onto her back and rolling on top of her with a laugh, before seeking her mouth in another kiss. a warm, wanting, forward kiss, with her arms tightly around dan heng's slim body, hugging her close. ]
Oh.. and -
[ she pauses, pulls back to look down at dan heng, her face flushed warm, hair wild around her shoulders. ]
.. that goes for everything physical, too. Anything beyond kissing, hugging - that's all yours to tell me your comfort level, okay? If I'm your first.. I want everything to be in your hands.
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It's enough that there's a slight jut of her lower lip when Ren pulls back, although the words that follow explain, make Dan Heng tilt her head with a tender understanding, fingers lifting to brush that wild hair back as she smiles, fond. ]
Yeah, [ she says. ] You're my first. And... when it comes to that, you will be my first, too. But... I trust you, Ren. If something's too much, I promise I'll tell you. Is that okay?
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Yeah. That's okay.
[ whatever's easiest for dan heng. whatever makes her comfortable. if she would rather ren take the lead for now and speak up when it goes too far, then that's fine, that's what they'll do.
so she dips down again to pick up where she left off, kissing dan heng fully and completely, humming quietly as she parts her lips to deepen the kiss, confident now as she coaxes dan heng's lips apart to taste her again. ]
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Dan Heng's lips part under Ren's, a sigh on her mouth as she wraps her arms more tightly around her, as she curls her fingers through the other's beautiful, wild hair. There's still the salty taste of popcorn on her lips, but more than that there's something sweet, something Dan Heng doesn't think she'll be able to get enough of chasing after. ]
You're... mn.
[ A soft sigh of pleasure as Dan Heng relaxes, sinks into the mattress. ]
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I'm.. what? Mmm..?
[ she hums between kisses, smiling, kissing her again, again. ren's hands move, smoothing down dan heng's sides, over her hips, up again, thumbing beneath the hem of her shirt as their bodies settle comfortably together, hips aligning.
she won't push too much. she shouldn't. dan heng is a virgin, and gods, ren has wanted her for so long now, but she doesn't want to spook her, doesn't want to expect too much too fast. but some touching.. that should be all right. if it isn't, dan heng will tell her so. breaking the kiss, ren drags her mouth along dan heng's jaw, kissing a line down the side of her tender throat while her hands slip beneath her shirt. not high. just feeling her sides. her warm skin. ]
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She's... something. Dan Heng knew she had something to say... but she forgets, and she's not sure it matters in the wake of this anyway. She's not sure anything matters compared to the feelings of those hands sliding over her sides, slipping under her shirt so Ren's fingers can touch bare skin—
(A shudder of pleasure, Dan Heng's head tipping back slightly, allowing the other all the more space to kiss along her jaw, her throat.)
And yes, she'll tell her if it's too much, but how can anything be too much? Dan Heng wants everything, wants to experience everything Yingxing wants to give her— ]
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