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[ yingxing exhales hard.

his ears still ring with the music, his blood thrumming with excitement. for all the years that highcloud has been together now, he never really tires of this work. he loves what he does, loves his bandmates no matter how often they butt heads, loves everything about their music. it's hard work, exhausting even at the best of times, and there are certainly many downsides to fame and celebrity status, but this.. playing together, making music, performing, he's passionate about it. the riches and fame are secondary to doing what he loves.

they're halfway through their rehearsal now, splitting up to take a break and rehydrate, and it's as he's guzzling down some water from a bottle that yingxing spots dan heng, dan feng's quiet, elusive little brother.

they've met before, but only briefly, only in passing. while dan heng is supportive of his brother and the band, he's a bit of a recluse, and he's never really gone out of his way to interact with any of them beyond dan feng - so what's he doing here right now? yingxing can't resist the urge to pester him, not when he knows he might not get the chance to again for some time now.

so, wiping sweat from his brow, yingxing wanders toward the table where dan heng has set up shop, surrounded by books and papers, lit by the glow of his laptop and tablet. ]

Long time no see.

[ entirely uninvited, yingxing pulls up a seat across from dan heng, straddling it backwards, leaning his forearms on the back of the steel chair. his hair is wild and his skin is flushed and dewy with sweat, adrenaline still pumping, his grin broad and easy. ]

Surprised you can concentrate with all this noise.

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[ It's something he doesn't really think he can explain—but it's not for Yingxing. It's for himself, and yet it's something he didn't even realize he really wanted until Yingxing was in the picture, despite having thought about it more than once.

Somehow, having the other man reaffirm that he doesn't need to do it for him, though, that just makes him feel all that much better. It makes him smile to himself as he finishes undoing Yingxing's shirt and pushes it aside, lazily leaning down to press a few kisses to the bared skin. ]

It is for me. I can't really explain why, but it is. [ He glances up at the other, expression quietly warm. ] I know you don't care. It... I realized that right away. Right from the beginning you've just accepted me for who I am, so...

[ His cheeks color. Aeons, he's getting sappy... ]

[ dan heng's warm lips press to his skin, and yingxing hums softly, his eyelids flickering low. ]

Good. As long as it's for you, that's all that matters.

[ dan heng shouldn't change for anyone, especially when major surgery is involved. whatever he needs to do in order to feel like the person he needs to be is good, and yingxing would be proud to be with him every step of the way, or even if dan heng chooses not to, decides that the binder is enough.

and there he goes, being sappy again. it's so sweet. anyone who knows dan heng well knows that his heart is gentle and kind, but it's surprising when compared with his usual stoic disposition. what a sweet guy he is. ]

You're really tough.

[ Dan Heng smiles at that, pressing another kiss to Yingxing's skin before he straightens up again, letting his fingers skim down to the waistband of the other's pants. ]

I'm not really tough, [ he says after a moment's thought. ] I'm exactly as tough as I need to be. It's not always... Some days are harder than others. But the magic helps a lot, and... Dan Feng has always been amazing, and...

[ And then there's the part where he's with someone who sees him with no hesitation as beautiful, too. That helps a lot also. He doesn't say that, though. Just smiles private to himself, his fingers catching in the fastenings of Yingxing's pants. ]

I feel loved, regardless of anything. And that helps.

[ yingxing chuckles, his smile wry. ]

Just because you have good support doesn't mean you aren't tough.

[ the struggle is dan heng's entirely, only he can wrestle with it. but nevertheless, yingxing is grateful for dan feng, grateful for dan heng's friends, for everyone who has helped support him so he can blossom into the person that he is.

yingxing's breath catches when dan heng tugs at his belt, his eyelids low. ]

But I get it. I'm glad you've found good people to help hold you up.

[ Despite himself, Dan Heng finds himself smiling. He's never really thought of himself as tough before, only that... this is the lot with which he was born to deal. Nothing less, nothing more. To have Yingxing complimenting him like that...

Mm. It's nice. And...

Well, he wasn't going to say anything, but perhaps being open with him is a reward of its own. When he's finished unbuckling Yingxing's belt, hands moving to the top of his pants to push them off his hips, he looks up to offer the older man a smile. ]

Something that's really nice is that there's this guy I like who called me "beautiful" when he saw me naked for the first time.

[ yingxing's smile softens considerably. ]

.. oh yeah? Well, I'd say that guy has great taste.

[ chuckling softly, he shifts his hips to help dan heng slide his jeans down off of his hips and legs - thankfully, despite being nicely fitted, they're not skin tight, so it's not too much of a challenge.

it's a good thing that yingxing knows the staff here. security will be tastefully looking away, for a time. his hands slide higher at last, sweeping dan heng's shirt and binder both over his head in one movement, warm skin pressed to warm skin. ]

And he's right, too.

[ Dan Heng smiles back at Yingxing, tossing the older man's jeans to the side, leaving him clad in naught but his underwear; a moment later, his own shirt and binder are tugged off in response, and just like that they're mostly naked against the plush bedding that Yingxing has set out, one in his underwear and one in his slacks.

And not for the first time, it strikes him that they're in quite a public place.

He ducks his head against Yingxing's shoulder, allows the nervousness to sweep him up a little where he's otherwise been pushing it away. ]

I know there are security cameras in this room. Please tell me that they know to look the other way for a little while...

[ After all... now that they're laid out like this? Dan Heng thinks he wouldn't mind taking some time before getting dressed again.. ]

[ a soft laugh rolls past his lips. ]

Don't worry. No one is looking.

[ he says softly, then gestures with one hand toward the security camera tucked into the corner. it is pointed away, toward the wall, so even if someone did attempt a glance, they would see only darkness. ]

But if you're worried -

[ he snags the blanket, tucking it up around them both, so they're hidden well beneath it. ]

[ At Yingxing's gesture, Dan Heng is quick to look up, to see the security camera pointed away from them. It makes him bite his lower lip as his eyes flick up to the older man's face, and—he laughs as he's swept up behind the blanket, tucked in more securely, wrapped up in warmth and kept from view. ]

Mm. No reason to worry, then. Right?

[ He shifts a little closer, leaning up to brush his mouth against the older man's. They're both still wearing a little clothing, but... ]

I've been thinking about this a little. Is it... too much?

Too much?

[ dan heng moves in closer, and yingxing's arms slide around him beneath the blanket, one hand splaying over his back, smoothing downward, following the curve of his spine. he tips up his chin to capture dan heng's lips, kissing him softly, but with warmth, deliberate. ]

Not at all. I've been thinking about it, too. More than I should, probably.

[ he's been thinking about dan heng in general, but it would be a lie to say he wasn't also thinking about this. ]

I'm a little crazy about you..

Good.

[ Dan Heng's smile broadens as Yingxing's hand splays and smooths down over his spine. His own hands lift, wrapping around the older man's shoulders, tangling in his beautiful, pale hair. To the admission, he nods, nuzzling his nose against the other man's. ]

I... me too. Thinking about it more than I should. About you. I'm a little crazy too, and I know this is just a first date but..

[ He tangles his legs, still in his neat slacks, with Yingxing's. ]

Is it okay if I want you? Here?

[ yingxing laughs, his hands sliding up dan heng's bare back then down again. ]

It's okay for you to want me anywhere, at any time.

[ and he means it. feels it. he's wild about dan heng, both romantically and physically, would never turn him down, not on the first date or the fiftieth. one hand slips up into that soft dark hair, and he pulls dan heng down for a kiss, soft and lingering, then a little harder, with a little more heat.

a low hum rolls in yingxing's chest, his free hand grasping dan heng's hip, pulling their bodies more tightly together. ]

Good.

[ The word blooms in his chest, warm and content, as he's pulled into a kiss, soft and sweet and first but quickly heating up in a way that has a warm spark lighting in his belly, a slow pulse of warmth spreading from between his legs to warm the whole of him.

It distracts him from saying what's on his mind, that he'll always want Yingxing, anywhere and anytime, but perhaps that's okay, he thinks as the other's hand drags his hip in closer, their bodies becoming more flush to one another. ]

Mmn, yes...

[ the way dan heng murmurs against his lips makes yingxing's body tighten, heat bubbling in his gut. they kiss, and it's wonderful, soft, deep, warm.. ah, it feels so good, he could kiss dan heng for hours and never tire of it.

at last yingxing pushes forward, rolling dan heng to press him into the soft bedding. ]

Tell me what you've been thinking about.

[ he murmurs, kissing along dan heng's jaw, his throat, while his hips grind downward, against the heat between dan heng's legs. ]

What you've wanted to do..

[ What he's been thinking about...

Aeons help him, what hasn't he been thinking about? It hasn't even been a full week since his heat ended, which means it hasn't been a full week since they were last together, and yet Dan Heng feels like his brain has been working on overdrive, imagining all the sorts of ways they could be together, fantasizing about going down on him again, or on being eaten out, or...

He takes a shuddering breath, fingers curling into Yingxing's hair as his hips arch upward into those grinding movements. ]

I... I've thought about going down on you again. And about you fucking me, and...

[ There's a pause, a dark coloration to his cheeks as the rest of that fantasy replays itself in his mind, words unspoken as his lips brush Yingxing's jaw. ]

Mm. Yeah.

[ dan heng is so sweet, so soft and shy even as he's rocking his hips upward and grinding their bodies together, all but begging to be fucked. the juxtaposition is incredibly arousing. dan heng had been hot when he was in heat, when he was needy and forward about what he wanted, but this is just as good, just as alluring.. ]

.. and?

[ yingxing's grin spreads across dan heng's skin, and he hums, his hands sliding down the sides of dan heng's underclothing, pushing it down his hips and thighs. ]

And what else?

[ he prompts, coaxing, as he kicks that clothing away, leaving dan heng beautifully bare for him. ]

[ Ugh, he should have known he wouldn't get away with that, that Yingxing would see right through any attempt to gloss over his own embarrassment... but at the same time, he's struggling, working out how he wants to put his feelings to words, especially as the other man's hands slide down over his skin to pull his undergarments off, leaving him naked under the blankets.

His lips purse, and his eyes look up into Yingxing's face for a moment, searching, thankful for the way the dim light in the room works to cover how dark his cheeks are becoming. Asking outright for what he wants feels so crass, but.. ]

I've thought about... what it might be like. How it would be different if.. if I'd been born a guy. How.. sex would be different.

[ it takes him a moment, but soon enough, yingxing pieces it together. ]

.. ah. I understand.

[ and it makes sense, that dan heng would want to feel that, would want to experience that. yingxing smiles down at him, smoothing his dark fringe back with one hand. ]

Well, first of all, you are a guy, no matter what parts you have. I hope you know that, and know that I see that. But that said..

[ he starts, then frowns. ]

- ah, shit, I didn't bring any lube.

[ of course, he remembered the condoms this time, but he hadn't been expecting anal!! ]

[ Dan Heng smiles. He knows it, and he knows that Yingxing sees it too. It doesn't mean that there aren't some parts of the whole thing that bother him, of course, but also, that was just the easiest way for him to explain what he had been thinking about.

And as for Yingxing, he can't help but notice how there's really no hesitation, how as usual the older man just takes everything in his stride, and that...

It makes him feel good. Enough that he's still smiling when the other mentions he doesn't have any lube.

Dan Heng reaches a hand up, brushes it against Yingxing's cheek before following it with a kiss. ]

I wanted you to know I've been thinking about it, but that doesn't mean it has to be tonight.

Ah, right. Another time, then.

[ whenever dan heng is ready, some time in his own bed, or in dan heng's, when they have the time to dedicate to making sure it's a good experience, comfortable and pleasurable. though he doesn't have a prostate, there are still ways to make it good for him.

for now, though, they have this. yingxing sinks down into another kiss, parting his lips over dan heng's to deepen it while his hands move, sliding over his lover's body, gentle and soft, feeling dan heng's curves and planes, all of his soft skin. ]

[ Dan Heng nods, smiles. ] Another time.

[ That's more than alright with him. Especially when it doesn't stop them from enjoying themselves in another way (or ways) now, his own hands moving to explore Yingxing's body in turn—and, as they kiss, hooking his fingers into the other's waistband so that he can finally tug his underwear off him.

Once the garment reaches his hips, he keeps working at it with one hand; the other, instead, lifts to Yingxing's half-hard cock, fingers curling him to stroke over him. Slow, teasing, exploring. ]

Mm. [ It's a contented sound into their kiss, Dan Heng's tongue teasing over Blade's lower lip as he arches up into him. ]

[ they're bare at last beneath the soft blankets, yingxing half hard already, his breath catching when dan heng's warm, soft hand palms at him, stroking him deep from root to tip. he groans, soft and quiet, rocking his hips down into the touch. ]

I'm so crazy about you..

[ he whispers against dan heng's soft mouth, resting his elbows down on either side of his head so he can more easily roll his hips, his cock filling out more with every stroke. ]

You make me feel insane..

I.. me too.

[ It's a soft, almost shy whisper against Yingxing's mouth, Dan Heng's movements continuing at that same, slow pace as the older man's hips start to rock down into his hand. He moans softly, unable to help himself, as he feels the other's cock hardening, filling out in answer to his touch. ]

I've been crazy about you for a long while now.

[ And sure, maybe for a long time it was at least in part the craziness a fan felt toward his idol, but... given that he's known Yingxing a long time, it's always been more complicated than that— ]

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