[ oh, look at her.. she's so beautiful right now, blushing sweetly, her hair soft from being freshly showered, framing her lovely face..
even ren can't help a little flush on her cheeks. ]
Mm. Me too.
[ but she doesn't move away. she stays close, her hand on dan heng's waist, feeling the warmth of her skin through her shirt, thumb rubbing slow, idle circles. eventually, she rests her head on the pillow beside dan heng's so she can better look into her eyes, the movie now currently ignored, for the moment.
not for the first time tonight, ren's gaze drops briefly down to dan heng's lips, then back up again. ]
[ "Me too," Ren says, and it seems normal, seems like a perfectly average conversation. Doesn't it? Except for the part where Ren stays close to her despite both of them claiming to be warm, where Dan Heng doesn't pull away either, where the older of the two is shifting so she can look better into the other's face, where the movie plays on but Dan Heng can't bring herself look away from Ren, watching as those eyes drop to her lips for the barest of moments, and... ]
..Always?
[ It's the barest of whispers, hesitant and sweet on her lips. "Always" doesn't sound like silly flirting. It sounds like something else, something that trembles in the way her heart does when she looks at Ren. Something serious.
[ the way she bites her lip, the way she says me too, confirming what ren had thought and hoped for but never dared to fully believe.. gods, dan heng has no idea how crazy she drives ren, does she? no idea how just one look, just one sigh, can make her feel dizzy and out of her mind? ]
You know..
[ she starts, feeling her heart flutter, her dark eyelashes lowering. her palm slides a little further up, counting the frets of dan heng's ribs. ]
.. people think I'm a slut. That I'll sleep with just anyone. That I like to date around and break hearts, but.. it isn't really true.
[ sure, she enjoys her parties. she likes to flirt, likes to kiss, even occasionally enjoys a fling if the chemistry is good, but she doesn't sleep around nearly as much as people think. she certainly doesn't sleep with anyone, and she doesn't date. hasn't gone on a single date since enrolling. there's a little truth to the rumors, but most of it is exaggerated based on ren's charisma and flirtatiousness, and she lets people believe it because it's fun. ]
I'd only date someone I really, really like, and then.. they'd be it for me, you know?
[ For a long moment, Dan Heng looks up into Ren's face in silence—a soft, breathy little flutter of air over her lips the only real clue that she's responding. There's a part of her that wants to protest, tell the other she never thought she was a slut, even if she did buy into the rumors, allowing them to be her shield and armor both in a constant battle against her attraction—
But she never, would never...
Her breath trembles as Ren talks. The things she says, the way she says them, it... ]
It sounds like you know what you want.
[ Her voice is softer than she would like, but the words come where she fears they won't, even as her hand reaches to cover that playing along her ribs, linking fingers loosely together. ]
What's stopping you from going ahead and taking it?
[ ren? afraid? she's fearless, isn't she? always doing whatever she wants no matter what, never letting anything stand in her way. but liking someone this much, being this vulnerable.. it's not something she's ever really had much experience with. high school dating can feel intense, but in the end, it's usually just that. the hormone fueled desire for connection and acceptance. she's never liked anyone the way she likes dan heng. ]
This girl I like, see, I've liked her for a long time. Sometimes I think she likes me too, but sometimes I worry, since she's not the type to fall for my flirting and charms. She doesn't show her hand too easily.
[ their fingers intertwine, and ren shifts closer, closer still, their noses rubbing alongside one another. ]
So, what if I'm wrong? What if I mess up something good because I asked for too much?
[ She's never once considered Ren as someone to be scared of anything. She's always seemed to go for what she wants, regardless of who might talk or what they might say. It's something Dan Heng has always both envied and admired in her, wondering what it would be like to be so confident that nothing shakes you—
Except it's clear that some things do shake Ren after all. Or rather...
Dan Heng's breath catches in her throat.
She's smart, logical. Always has been. And even with her propensity for self-doubt, there's no denying what Ren is saying right now, dancing around her words in a way uncharacteristic of her even as her nose and her fingers tell the truth of her feelings. "This girl I like"... Dan Heng has always tried not to allow herself hope, but this isn't even that, it's... ]
But what if you're not wrong? [ Despite how nervous she feels, her voice is steady. ] What if she does like you too?
[ the film is all but forgotten. nothing more than background noise now, and flickering light playing over dan heng's soft, pretty features. it breaks ren's heart - how beautiful she is. how smart and sharp she is. how loyal, and kind, and brave. ren smiles. ]
Maybe she does. Maybe I'm the luckiest person in the world.
[ she says softly, so softly, the words almost lost between them. ]
So you're saying I should just go for it.
[ a tremble runs through her hands, ren's pupils dark in the red-orange wreaths of her irises, never leaving dan heng's eyes. for so long she'd thought that dan heng just put up with her flirting out of kindness, out of the desire to maintain a good relationship with her roommate. dan heng never reciprocated, after all, only ever rolled her eyes or sighed, and ren, someone who is generally quite good at being able to tell when someone is into her, faltered.
you see, everything is different when you want someone beyond just a kiss. beyond just a playful time together. but there's no denying it anymore, not when dan heng's hand is in her own, not when they're so close, and dan heng isn't pushing her away. ren's hand lifts from dan heng's side to her face, brushing the hair from her unbruised eye, cupping her cheek. ]
[ It's tempting, when Ren seeks confirmation once more, to take things into her own hands. After all, it's clear now that they both understand what's happening, what the true meaning of this moment between them is. But something about taking the lead right in this moment feels wrong, and so Dan Heng just smiles.
Ren always has been the more forward of the two of them, anyway. ]
I am.
[ Somewhere nearby, a movie is playing. As far as action movies go, it's not bad—but Dan Heng has forgotten to care about it. She leans her head into the soft touch of her roommate's hand, and once again where Ren trembles she's somehow steady, her own free hand lifting to the other woman's shoulder.
The luckiest person in the world... surely that's her. Right? For someone as beautiful and striking as Ren to even glance her way, let alone stay looking... ]
[ a puff of breath leaves her, shaped around a grin. ]
No taking it back.
[ she whispers, barely heard between them, before ren does as she's asked and takes a chance, takes the initiative, closing the now infinitesimal distance between them in a kiss.
it isn't a shy kiss. it's bold and forward, just as ren herself is, her lips pressing firmly to dan heng's, tasting her for the first time since they've met. oh, her mouth is just as pillowy soft as ren had known it would be, her lips warm and silken, her breath a delicate gust. the hand at her cheek remains, while ren's opposite arm slides around her from beneath, scooping her in near, close, flush.
eyes closed, ears buzzing with the thrum of her pulse, ren's hand slides from dan heng's cheek into her hair, tangling in the soft silken waterfall of her cute high ponytail. ]
[ If there were room to talk, Dan Heng would tell Ren that she has no intention of taking anything back. But before she can do that, she's scooped in close, her roommate's mouth finding hers with a firm forwardness that has Dan Heng's breath rush from her lips, her own hand sliding from where it rests against Ren's shoulder to wind instead behind it, wrapping around her back.
Yes. This is what she's wanted for longer than she can count, now. Finally...
Humming lowly, she winds herself in close to answer the kiss, her lips parting ever so barely as her body comes flush to Ren's, her pulse spiking in her veins and her head thrumming with knowledge and curiosity and thousands more things that she can't put into words. Cautious, curious, her tongue skates past her lips to brush over Ren's, tasting the fullness of her lower lip, the remnants of salt from the popcorn. ]
[ aeons, dan heng feels incredible. she's so warm and soft, her lips sweet and her body pliant, fitting perfectly, wonderfully against her own. they're both wearing flimsy sleepwear, so she can easily feel the heat of dan heng against her, legs tangling, arms winding around one another.
ren feels dizzy. she's kissed plenty of people, but never anyone she's wanted this badly, never anyone who meant so much to her, never anyone she could see herself spending every moment of every day with. what an incredible feeling, freeing and intoxicating in equal measure. when dan heng is bold enough to tease her lip, ren parts them without hesitation, tilting her head to lock their mouths more perfectly together.
her heart pounds against her ribs. her body feels hot all over. the movie is nothing but noise. dan heng wants this. she really wants this. ]
Go out with me.
[ she whispers against those delicate, perfect lips between hot kisses, her tongue gliding past to taste her, to trace her shape. ]
[ Ren isn't the only one who feels dizzy. Dan Heng hasn't kissed that many people before, and it's easy to find herself swallowed up by the sensations, to kiss until she can't breathe (because she's forgotten to), to gasp for air when the other whispers against her mouth.
The question is molten against her lips, earning a nod, a breathless little sound of agreement. Later, she'll tell her that there was never any question, that she was always going to say yes—that Ren was always going to be hers the moment she wanted to be, just like Dan Heng has always, always been Ren's—but for now, that breathless sound is all she gets as the younger woman shuffles in closer, sighs at the taste of her tongue, curls her arm tighter around her shoulders even as the fingers of her other hand hold tight.
Dan Heng really wants this. She's really wanted this for a while. And Ren...
Well, if there were any lingering doubts left, they're gone now. Dan Heng finds herself smiling into their kiss, content even as her blood pulses hot through her veins. ]
[ ren can't get over how dizzyingly good dan heng tastes and feels, how amazing she sounds, breathless and gasping like that, sighing between every kiss as she holds tightly to ren's shoulders like she needs her to breathe. this is all she's wanted since not long after they met, since ren was immediately enamoured with her - her cute looks first, then all the rest of her soon after.
and somehow, they're still not close enough. still not near enough.
the kiss deepens, intensifies, the two of them devouring one another whole. ren laps at her mouth, tracing her teeth and tasting her tongue, humming low in her chest as her entire body shudders.
at last, her hands begin to travel. she tries to behave herself as best as she can, but she needs to touch dan heng, even just a little. ren's hands map out her shape, sliding down her sides and over the swell of her hips, one slipping beneath the back of her shirt to palm at her skin and gods, it's just as soft as she knew it would be. ]
[ Dan Heng sighs once more against Ren's mouth, her arms wrapping that little more tightly, not realizing what each of her breaths and movements is doing to the other woman—neither possessing quite enough presence of mind to control her situation even if she did. With her own relative inexperience in mind, she's terrified of getting lost in this, and the last thing she wants is to lay there like a deer in headlights while Ren pleases her.
No, Dan Heng wants Ren to know just how much she also is wanted. Which means that for these first few moments, perhaps ironically, there's little for her to do but cling and grasp like Ren is the only person in her world... and breathe, desperately trying to get herself grounded. ]
Ren—
[ It's gasped out just as the other woman's hands start to move, sliding down over Dan Heng's sides and her hips, touching bare skin in a way that makes the younger feel like she's being shocked by pure electricity, in the best of ways—
Is there even a good way to be shocked by electricity? Aeons, she's going insane...
With a soft, shaky sigh, Dan Heng pulls back just enough to shift herself atop Ren, legs caging the other woman's in as she looks down at her in silence for just a moment. ]
In case you didn't know, I'm already yours. I have been for a long time now.
[ when dan heng whines her name like that it's like an electric shock down her spine, but she worries for a moment that she's gone a little too far, that she's pushed too fast by touching her, but then dan heng is turning her onto her back, straddling her hips and looking down at her -
she looks like a goddess, flush-faced and needy, her dark hair wreathing her beautiful face. ren stares, slack-jawed for a moment, desirous and in awe.
but then dan heng speaks, and she exhales softly around a smile. ]
.. you have no idea how long I've wanted to hear that.
[ ren's hands smooth over the tops of dan heng's bare thighs, before one rises to cup her cheek, looking into her beautiful teal eyes that shine brightly even in the afternoon light. ]
[ She won't explain. It's obvious enough, probably, what it was that's been holding her back all this time—what has been, it seems, holding both of them back despite both wanting the same thing. She smiles, the expression soft and shy, and leans down over Ren, brushing her lips against the other woman's in a brief kiss. ]
Should we turn the movie off? The truth is, I'm kind of crazy about you too. I'd rather not find myself distracted by one of those silly action scenes when I should be focusing on you...
[ Her cheeks warm again even as she says it. She's not good at this, but... she also wants to make sure that Ren knows she means it, really means it. After seeing her nervousness earlier, her worry her feelings wouldn't be returned... ]
[ ren's hand scrambles across the bedding, finding the remote control where they'd left it, and quickly shutting off the television, plunging the room into silence punctuated only by their heavy breathing. ]
I'm all yours, now.
[ no distractions. nothing else. just the two of them, and the breaking of this tension that's been hanging on too long. ]
[ With the room in silence again, Dan Heng unwinds her leg from Ren and moves to lie next to her again, reaching out to run fingers down the side of the other's face. ]
You look beautiful, Ren.
[ It's a sweet whisper, one that Dan Heng follows by reaching to remove her glasses, putting them aside before she moves to rest her head against the other woman's, forehead to forehead once more. ]
I'm sorry I made you wait. I just... I was afraid to hope you might mean it.
[ dan heng settles down beside her again, and ren misses the warm weight of her, and the excellent view, but this is excellent, too - just having dan heng close, warm and soft and pliant and perfect..
grinning, ren runs her thumb along dan heng's lower lip. ]
Hey, you don't have to be sorry. I know how I come off.
[ she chuckles, wriggling in closer, tangling their legs together. ]
[ Dan Heng just smiles, shakes her head as Ren's thumb runs along her lower lip, as the older girl tangles their legs together. In hindsight, maybe Ren was obvious, but... ]
Now that I look at it, maybe. But I...
[ She shakes her head. ]
I'm more of a coward than you. I was too scared to risk it. You're so beautiful and popular, I couldn't imagine how you'd...
[ And Dan Heng trails off, wrinkling her nose in embarrassment and frustration. How does she explain it? ]
[ ren shakes her head, unable to hold back a soft laugh. ]
You're not a coward, Danbao, you're an idiot.
[ she says helpfully, grinning, then leans in to kiss her again, one hand smoothing down her back while the other slides into her hair, her knee pushing between dan heng's warm thighs. she hums, low and soft and appreciative, nipping at dan heng's lower lip, whispering against it. ]
You're smart, brave, loyal, gorgeous.. what more could I ever want?
[ Her lips part, a protest on her tongue when Ren calls her an idiot, but any form of complaint is ended by the press of the other's mouth to hers again, Dan Heng answering the kiss with a sigh, legs parting a little to give Ren the access she seeks with the press of her knee. A shudder of pleasure runs down her spine as the other woman whispers into her mouth, nipping at her lower lip, her own hands moving to rest at Ren's sides. ]
Mmn. You can say that, but you, Ren... you're so perfect. Haven't you seen the way everyone looks at you?
[ How would someone like Ren look at her, when she had some of the most amazing people on campus eyeing her, chasing after her? ]
Every time I saw you with someone, it was someone else as perfect as you are. I didn't think I could even start to measure up.
Pfft. I have big tits and a nice ass. That's why people look at me the way that they do.
[ and anyone can look good if they try - the right clothes, the right makeup - but it's all physical. dan heng has that and more. ]
And hey, don't talk about my girlfriend that way.
[ she teases, smiling as she rubs their noses together, kissing the corner of dan heng's mouth, then along her jawline, slow and soft, savoring each kiss. ]
[ Dan Heng looks up at Ren in quiet shock when the other scolds her, teases her. The blush still ever-present on her cheeks since their first kiss, darkens, and she closes her eyes against those kisses, tilting her head back with a soft, embarrassed whine on her lips. ]
Girlfriend...?
[ Her fingers reach, stroke down over Ren's cheek, eyes searching the other's face. ]
That was kinda sudden of you, huh...
[ But it's a smile on her lips, curling the corners despite herself even as she tries to hide it. ]
Well, I mean, you said that you were mine, and that you'd go out with me..
[ ren hums, lifting her head to meet dan heng's eyes, much as she wants to keep kissing her, her mouth, her jaw, her throat - she looks into her face instead. ]
.. unless you're saying you meant that in a besties, girls being girls sort of way, hmm?
[ you know, besties who kiss and shower together. ]
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even ren can't help a little flush on her cheeks. ]
Mm. Me too.
[ but she doesn't move away. she stays close, her hand on dan heng's waist, feeling the warmth of her skin through her shirt, thumb rubbing slow, idle circles. eventually, she rests her head on the pillow beside dan heng's so she can better look into her eyes, the movie now currently ignored, for the moment.
not for the first time tonight, ren's gaze drops briefly down to dan heng's lips, then back up again. ]
.. I'm always warm, around you.
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..Always?
[ It's the barest of whispers, hesitant and sweet on her lips. "Always" doesn't sound like silly flirting. It sounds like something else, something that trembles in the way her heart does when she looks at Ren. Something serious.
She bites her lip. ]
Me too.
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You know..
[ she starts, feeling her heart flutter, her dark eyelashes lowering. her palm slides a little further up, counting the frets of dan heng's ribs. ]
.. people think I'm a slut. That I'll sleep with just anyone. That I like to date around and break hearts, but.. it isn't really true.
[ sure, she enjoys her parties. she likes to flirt, likes to kiss, even occasionally enjoys a fling if the chemistry is good, but she doesn't sleep around nearly as much as people think. she certainly doesn't sleep with anyone, and she doesn't date. hasn't gone on a single date since enrolling. there's a little truth to the rumors, but most of it is exaggerated based on ren's charisma and flirtatiousness, and she lets people believe it because it's fun. ]
I'd only date someone I really, really like, and then.. they'd be it for me, you know?
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But she never, would never...
Her breath trembles as Ren talks. The things she says, the way she says them, it... ]
It sounds like you know what you want.
[ Her voice is softer than she would like, but the words come where she fears they won't, even as her hand reaches to cover that playing along her ribs, linking fingers loosely together. ]
What's stopping you from going ahead and taking it?
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Would you believe me if I told you I was afraid?
[ ren? afraid? she's fearless, isn't she? always doing whatever she wants no matter what, never letting anything stand in her way. but liking someone this much, being this vulnerable.. it's not something she's ever really had much experience with. high school dating can feel intense, but in the end, it's usually just that. the hormone fueled desire for connection and acceptance. she's never liked anyone the way she likes dan heng. ]
This girl I like, see, I've liked her for a long time. Sometimes I think she likes me too, but sometimes I worry, since she's not the type to fall for my flirting and charms. She doesn't show her hand too easily.
[ their fingers intertwine, and ren shifts closer, closer still, their noses rubbing alongside one another. ]
So, what if I'm wrong? What if I mess up something good because I asked for too much?
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You?
[ She's never once considered Ren as someone to be scared of anything. She's always seemed to go for what she wants, regardless of who might talk or what they might say. It's something Dan Heng has always both envied and admired in her, wondering what it would be like to be so confident that nothing shakes you—
Except it's clear that some things do shake Ren after all. Or rather...
Dan Heng's breath catches in her throat.
She's smart, logical. Always has been. And even with her propensity for self-doubt, there's no denying what Ren is saying right now, dancing around her words in a way uncharacteristic of her even as her nose and her fingers tell the truth of her feelings. "This girl I like"... Dan Heng has always tried not to allow herself hope, but this isn't even that, it's... ]
But what if you're not wrong? [ Despite how nervous she feels, her voice is steady. ] What if she does like you too?
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Maybe she does. Maybe I'm the luckiest person in the world.
[ she says softly, so softly, the words almost lost between them. ]
So you're saying I should just go for it.
[ a tremble runs through her hands, ren's pupils dark in the red-orange wreaths of her irises, never leaving dan heng's eyes. for so long she'd thought that dan heng just put up with her flirting out of kindness, out of the desire to maintain a good relationship with her roommate. dan heng never reciprocated, after all, only ever rolled her eyes or sighed, and ren, someone who is generally quite good at being able to tell when someone is into her, faltered.
you see, everything is different when you want someone beyond just a kiss. beyond just a playful time together. but there's no denying it anymore, not when dan heng's hand is in her own, not when they're so close, and dan heng isn't pushing her away. ren's hand lifts from dan heng's side to her face, brushing the hair from her unbruised eye, cupping her cheek. ]
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Ren always has been the more forward of the two of them, anyway. ]
I am.
[ Somewhere nearby, a movie is playing. As far as action movies go, it's not bad—but Dan Heng has forgotten to care about it. She leans her head into the soft touch of her roommate's hand, and once again where Ren trembles she's somehow steady, her own free hand lifting to the other woman's shoulder.
The luckiest person in the world... surely that's her. Right? For someone as beautiful and striking as Ren to even glance her way, let alone stay looking... ]
Take a chance, Ren.
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No taking it back.
[ she whispers, barely heard between them, before ren does as she's asked and takes a chance, takes the initiative, closing the now infinitesimal distance between them in a kiss.
it isn't a shy kiss. it's bold and forward, just as ren herself is, her lips pressing firmly to dan heng's, tasting her for the first time since they've met. oh, her mouth is just as pillowy soft as ren had known it would be, her lips warm and silken, her breath a delicate gust. the hand at her cheek remains, while ren's opposite arm slides around her from beneath, scooping her in near, close, flush.
eyes closed, ears buzzing with the thrum of her pulse, ren's hand slides from dan heng's cheek into her hair, tangling in the soft silken waterfall of her cute high ponytail. ]
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Yes. This is what she's wanted for longer than she can count, now. Finally...
Humming lowly, she winds herself in close to answer the kiss, her lips parting ever so barely as her body comes flush to Ren's, her pulse spiking in her veins and her head thrumming with knowledge and curiosity and thousands more things that she can't put into words. Cautious, curious, her tongue skates past her lips to brush over Ren's, tasting the fullness of her lower lip, the remnants of salt from the popcorn. ]
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ren feels dizzy. she's kissed plenty of people, but never anyone she's wanted this badly, never anyone who meant so much to her, never anyone she could see herself spending every moment of every day with. what an incredible feeling, freeing and intoxicating in equal measure. when dan heng is bold enough to tease her lip, ren parts them without hesitation, tilting her head to lock their mouths more perfectly together.
her heart pounds against her ribs. her body feels hot all over. the movie is nothing but noise. dan heng wants this. she really wants this. ]
Go out with me.
[ she whispers against those delicate, perfect lips between hot kisses, her tongue gliding past to taste her, to trace her shape. ]
I want to be yours.
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The question is molten against her lips, earning a nod, a breathless little sound of agreement. Later, she'll tell her that there was never any question, that she was always going to say yes—that Ren was always going to be hers the moment she wanted to be, just like Dan Heng has always, always been Ren's—but for now, that breathless sound is all she gets as the younger woman shuffles in closer, sighs at the taste of her tongue, curls her arm tighter around her shoulders even as the fingers of her other hand hold tight.
Dan Heng really wants this. She's really wanted this for a while. And Ren...
Well, if there were any lingering doubts left, they're gone now. Dan Heng finds herself smiling into their kiss, content even as her blood pulses hot through her veins. ]
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and somehow, they're still not close enough. still not near enough.
the kiss deepens, intensifies, the two of them devouring one another whole. ren laps at her mouth, tracing her teeth and tasting her tongue, humming low in her chest as her entire body shudders.
at last, her hands begin to travel. she tries to behave herself as best as she can, but she needs to touch dan heng, even just a little. ren's hands map out her shape, sliding down her sides and over the swell of her hips, one slipping beneath the back of her shirt to palm at her skin and gods, it's just as soft as she knew it would be. ]
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No, Dan Heng wants Ren to know just how much she also is wanted. Which means that for these first few moments, perhaps ironically, there's little for her to do but cling and grasp like Ren is the only person in her world... and breathe, desperately trying to get herself grounded. ]
Ren—
[ It's gasped out just as the other woman's hands start to move, sliding down over Dan Heng's sides and her hips, touching bare skin in a way that makes the younger feel like she's being shocked by pure electricity, in the best of ways—
Is there even a good way to be shocked by electricity? Aeons, she's going insane...
With a soft, shaky sigh, Dan Heng pulls back just enough to shift herself atop Ren, legs caging the other woman's in as she looks down at her in silence for just a moment. ]
In case you didn't know, I'm already yours. I have been for a long time now.
[ And she leans down to kiss her again. ]
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she looks like a goddess, flush-faced and needy, her dark hair wreathing her beautiful face. ren stares, slack-jawed for a moment, desirous and in awe.
but then dan heng speaks, and she exhales softly around a smile. ]
.. you have no idea how long I've wanted to hear that.
[ ren's hands smooth over the tops of dan heng's bare thighs, before one rises to cup her cheek, looking into her beautiful teal eyes that shine brightly even in the afternoon light. ]
I'm so crazy about you..
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[ She won't explain. It's obvious enough, probably, what it was that's been holding her back all this time—what has been, it seems, holding both of them back despite both wanting the same thing. She smiles, the expression soft and shy, and leans down over Ren, brushing her lips against the other woman's in a brief kiss. ]
Should we turn the movie off? The truth is, I'm kind of crazy about you too. I'd rather not find myself distracted by one of those silly action scenes when I should be focusing on you...
[ Her cheeks warm again even as she says it. She's not good at this, but... she also wants to make sure that Ren knows she means it, really means it. After seeing her nervousness earlier, her worry her feelings wouldn't be returned... ]
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[ ren's hand scrambles across the bedding, finding the remote control where they'd left it, and quickly shutting off the television, plunging the room into silence punctuated only by their heavy breathing. ]
I'm all yours, now.
[ no distractions. nothing else. just the two of them, and the breaking of this tension that's been hanging on too long. ]
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You look beautiful, Ren.
[ It's a sweet whisper, one that Dan Heng follows by reaching to remove her glasses, putting them aside before she moves to rest her head against the other woman's, forehead to forehead once more. ]
I'm sorry I made you wait. I just... I was afraid to hope you might mean it.
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grinning, ren runs her thumb along dan heng's lower lip. ]
Hey, you don't have to be sorry. I know how I come off.
[ she chuckles, wriggling in closer, tangling their legs together. ]
Still, I thought I was pretty obvious.
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Now that I look at it, maybe. But I...
[ She shakes her head. ]
I'm more of a coward than you. I was too scared to risk it. You're so beautiful and popular, I couldn't imagine how you'd...
[ And Dan Heng trails off, wrinkling her nose in embarrassment and frustration. How does she explain it? ]
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[ ren shakes her head, unable to hold back a soft laugh. ]
You're not a coward, Danbao, you're an idiot.
[ she says helpfully, grinning, then leans in to kiss her again, one hand smoothing down her back while the other slides into her hair, her knee pushing between dan heng's warm thighs. she hums, low and soft and appreciative, nipping at dan heng's lower lip, whispering against it. ]
You're smart, brave, loyal, gorgeous.. what more could I ever want?
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Mmn. You can say that, but you, Ren... you're so perfect. Haven't you seen the way everyone looks at you?
[ How would someone like Ren look at her, when she had some of the most amazing people on campus eyeing her, chasing after her? ]
Every time I saw you with someone, it was someone else as perfect as you are. I didn't think I could even start to measure up.
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[ and anyone can look good if they try - the right clothes, the right makeup - but it's all physical. dan heng has that and more. ]
And hey, don't talk about my girlfriend that way.
[ she teases, smiling as she rubs their noses together, kissing the corner of dan heng's mouth, then along her jawline, slow and soft, savoring each kiss. ]
She measures up, and then some.
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Girlfriend...?
[ Her fingers reach, stroke down over Ren's cheek, eyes searching the other's face. ]
That was kinda sudden of you, huh...
[ But it's a smile on her lips, curling the corners despite herself even as she tries to hide it. ]
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[ ren hums, lifting her head to meet dan heng's eyes, much as she wants to keep kissing her, her mouth, her jaw, her throat - she looks into her face instead. ]
.. unless you're saying you meant that in a besties, girls being girls sort of way, hmm?
[ you know, besties who kiss and shower together. ]
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