band au;
[ yingxing exhales hard.
his ears still ring with the music, his blood thrumming with excitement. for all the years that highcloud has been together now, he never really tires of this work. he loves what he does, loves his bandmates no matter how often they butt heads, loves everything about their music. it's hard work, exhausting even at the best of times, and there are certainly many downsides to fame and celebrity status, but this.. playing together, making music, performing, he's passionate about it. the riches and fame are secondary to doing what he loves.
they're halfway through their rehearsal now, splitting up to take a break and rehydrate, and it's as he's guzzling down some water from a bottle that yingxing spots dan heng, dan feng's quiet, elusive little brother.
they've met before, but only briefly, only in passing. while dan heng is supportive of his brother and the band, he's a bit of a recluse, and he's never really gone out of his way to interact with any of them beyond dan feng - so what's he doing here right now? yingxing can't resist the urge to pester him, not when he knows he might not get the chance to again for some time now.
so, wiping sweat from his brow, yingxing wanders toward the table where dan heng has set up shop, surrounded by books and papers, lit by the glow of his laptop and tablet. ]
Long time no see.
[ entirely uninvited, yingxing pulls up a seat across from dan heng, straddling it backwards, leaning his forearms on the back of the steel chair. his hair is wild and his skin is flushed and dewy with sweat, adrenaline still pumping, his grin broad and easy. ]
Surprised you can concentrate with all this noise.
his ears still ring with the music, his blood thrumming with excitement. for all the years that highcloud has been together now, he never really tires of this work. he loves what he does, loves his bandmates no matter how often they butt heads, loves everything about their music. it's hard work, exhausting even at the best of times, and there are certainly many downsides to fame and celebrity status, but this.. playing together, making music, performing, he's passionate about it. the riches and fame are secondary to doing what he loves.
they're halfway through their rehearsal now, splitting up to take a break and rehydrate, and it's as he's guzzling down some water from a bottle that yingxing spots dan heng, dan feng's quiet, elusive little brother.
they've met before, but only briefly, only in passing. while dan heng is supportive of his brother and the band, he's a bit of a recluse, and he's never really gone out of his way to interact with any of them beyond dan feng - so what's he doing here right now? yingxing can't resist the urge to pester him, not when he knows he might not get the chance to again for some time now.
so, wiping sweat from his brow, yingxing wanders toward the table where dan heng has set up shop, surrounded by books and papers, lit by the glow of his laptop and tablet. ]
Long time no see.
[ entirely uninvited, yingxing pulls up a seat across from dan heng, straddling it backwards, leaning his forearms on the back of the steel chair. his hair is wild and his skin is flushed and dewy with sweat, adrenaline still pumping, his grin broad and easy. ]
Surprised you can concentrate with all this noise.
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"an absolute mess" is right; there's no protesting it, not even if he wanted to, the younger man groaning in answer, eyes half-lidded as he breathes around the words, lifts his wrist to his mouth, bites the skin to try to stop himself from begging for more when he's already had so much—
Except maybe Yingxing wants him to beg, the darkness in those eyes bearing down on him the same way that the other's body does, fierce and demanding. Say the words, he says, and Dan Heng bites back a whimper, drops his wrist, lifts his hand to cup the older man's cheek instead, fingers splayed over perfect skin as he breathes a shaky sigh. ]
Fuck me, [ he whispers. ] Please. I need you to fuck me.
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Anything for you, baby.
[ he whispers, turning his head to mouth hotly at dan heng's palm. aeons, he aches for him. leaning his weight on one elbow, yingxing hooks his opposite thumb into his waistband, tugging both his cotton pants and undershorts down together, just low enough for his cock to spring free, hard and hot. he's not small, and while hard he's heavy and thick, the flushed tip of his cock weeping precum liberally.
taking himself in hand, yingxing groans as he gives himself a few quick pumps, dan heng's slick still on his fingers making it all the easier. then, angling his hips, he drags the head of his cock between the folds of dan heng's eager, clenching cunt, so ready for him, so greedy for him.
he wants to fuck him deep and hard, but not everyone is accustomed to his size, so yingxing moves slowly, pushing his hips forward until the head pops in, before slowly, carefully guiding himself halfway in. the pleasure is immediate, a hot burst in his belly, and yingxing's breath catches roughly, abdomen tensing. ]
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And then the older man tugs his clothing just low enough for his cock to be freed, and Dan Heng decides it's that. He's big in the way a dominant male would be big—but Yingxing is human, and such things are rare—thick and so heavy with seed that both his mouth and his cunt drool with the possibility.
He writhes under the other man at the movement of his hips, the slow drag over his folds right before Yingxing starts to press into him; his eyes roll back in his head as the head breeches him, as the rest of him starts to press: slow, careful, leaving him writhing and groaning even as the other's breath catches above him.
And he knows, he knows that Yingxing is being slow for his sake, not wanting to hurt him, but Dan Heng is wetter than he's ever been, needier than he's ever been, and he's going to explode if he doesn't have him sooner rather than later, so— ]
I can take it.
[ His voice is low, rough, the fingers in Yingxing's hair tugging just enough to draw the other's attention to him. ]
I've needed this all day. I can take it.
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for a moment his eyes roll back, and yingxing groans low and deep. it's been awhile since he'd last had a partner, and the fact that he's wanted to get dan heng spread beneath him in his bed for a long while now certainly doesn't help. he could have seduced him much earlier he knows, dan heng likely would have given in, but yingxing had held back - had tried to, at least, given their disparate ages. now that's all shattered, and he's going to have to deal with the fallout, but that's just about the last thing on his mind right now, when he's got his swelling knot pressed up against dan heng's sweet, willing entrance.
at last he folds downward, his hips nestled between dan heng's spread thighs, pressing their bodies together and seeking his mouth in another hot kiss, allowing dan heng to enjoy the lingering taste of his cunt on yingxing's lips and tongue. both hands grops down dan heng's sides, seizing his hips and holding as he begins to move, drawing his hips back and fucking into him deeply. ]
Fuck, you feel so good..
[ he whispers harshly, licking into dan heng's mouth as their bodies slide together, his thumbs pressing into the dips of dan heng's hips. ]
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Yes—
[ It's a low affirmation of his pleasure right before Yingxing's mouth seizes his, the taste of salt and sweat and something sweeter on his tongue, and Dan Heng finds himself doing something he had never imagined doing before, licking the taste of his own cunt off Yingxing's mouth as he answers the other's kiss. His own arms circle the older man's shoulders as he arches up, crying out a little too loud at the sensation of the other's cock pistoning into him. So hard, so deep—so big that if Dan Heng didn't know better, he'd wonder if he were dealing with the beginnings of a knot. ]
So do you— [ He gasps it against the older man's mouth, fingers scrabbling against his back as his hips arch up into the movements. He's three orgasms in, but at this rate, he won't last long at all— ]
Don't stop, even when I come—
[ A low, small-voiced plea as he groans, holds the other man tighter as his hips rock up, needy and insistent. ]
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don't stop, even when i come.
that's just about the most erotic thing that yingxing has heard in a long time, and it's enough to make his cock twitch in dan heng's hold, his heart hammering. groaning low against his mouth, he catches dan heng's lower lip between his teeth, tugging. ]
I won't.
[ he'll fuck him as hard and fast and deep as he needs, as often as he wants. though his status as an alpha is often surprising to people, it means his refractory period is incredibly low, which is certainly convenient for his partners. he can satisfy dan heng as much as he needs, until he's completely exhausted.
so he keeps at it, fucking into him hard and fast, skin slapping skin, the mattress creaking as he slams dan heng down into it with every thrust. his elbows press into the bedding at either side of dan heng's neck, his head lowering to press hot kisses to his throat, sucking at his pulse, sweat already gathering on his skin. ]
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His hands scrabble helplessly against Yingxing's muscled shoulders before locking into his hair, holding tight enough to pull. His hips arch up, hard, fighting the downwards push if only to bring them still closer together. And his head cants, arches back, giving the other man as much room as he wants to suck kisses into his pulse point.
(And is it wrong to hope he'll leave marks? With the collars he tends to wear, no one would see, but he would know...)
Like this though it doesn't take long before another orgasm seizes him, body tensing under Yingxing's for a moment, slick gushing out around his cock, Dan Heng gasping helplessly for breath. He's immediately overwhelmed by the sensations, sinking bonelessly back into the older man's bed as the mattress creaks under Yingxing's hard movements. ]
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and yingxing won't stop, he'll exhaust the boy until he has nothing more to give, until his heat has ravaged his body and he's given everything he possibly can.
that first orgasm nearly knocks the breath from him. the way dan heng's cunt locks around his cock is almost painful, sinfully tight, and yingxing thrusts in hard, holding still for a moment so that dan heng might feel the full length of him inside of him, his straining knot pushed up hard against him.
but he can't stay still for long. before dan heng has even recovered, yingxing is fucking into him again, hard and fast, both hands seizing at his thighs to tug them up against his hips, coaxing him to wrap around his waist as his teeth and lips bruise that supple throat, nearly breaking skin. ]
So good for me, baby - [ he whispers harshly, through the loud slap of their bodies, and the slamming of the headboard. ] So wet, you feel so good -
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There's that moment when he comes that Yingxing pauses, deep inside him—and then he starts moving again and Dan Heng cries out again, a wild sound, a sound made of want and desperation alike, somehow drowning out the slap of their bodies and making it quiet. He's never this loud, ever, but now...
(Aeons, he's going mad, it really feels like there's a knot straining against him—)
He's left to shake and tremble under the wake of the other's movements, overwhelmed for those few moments despite getting exactly what he asked for, being fucked through his orgasm even as the motions make his head spin and his cunt clench in confused desire, his nerve endings alight with the sensation of too much but not enough. But then his body starts to settle down, the thrum of pleasure quickly attuning to the needs of his heat. Dan Heng is mindless but everything he's given, he needs.
Mindless enough that his lips form the shapes of words he wants to say, words he would never usually let himself say, words that fall from his breath, hot and aching like the rest of him: ]
Bite me—
[ Later, he'll be mortified. But for now, he's just listening, answering the needs of his body, asking for what it is he desires. ]
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who is yingxing to deny him?
opening his mouth wide, yingxing sinks in his teeth, scraping them over dan heng's pulse and down, a bruise blooming dark beneath his delicate skin. and then, clamping down, he uses dan heng as an anchor as he fucks him silly, pounding into him relentlessly, chasing his own pleasure now that dan heng has enjoyed no less than three orgasms at his hand. he's not sure he could hold off too much longer anyway - or, well, not sure that he wants to. his stamina is great enough that yingxing could drag this out if he wanted, but the desire to fill this beautiful boy up is too strong, the urge to breed him viciously clinging.
so he lets go. he allows the bliss to take over.
with a deep, feral moan against dan heng's throat, yingxing comes hard, snapping his hips faster and faster, his knot catching on dan heng's rim several times before it finally pops inside, plugging him up thoroughly as he spills in thick, heavy ropes of sticky hot spend. coating dan heng's walls, filling his waiting womb, yinxging's cock pulses within him, filling him over and over with an inordinate amount, and if not for his knot it would easily spill free, a mess all over the sheets. ]
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But it's a knot he gets, the sudden extra burst of fullness making him see stars. He comes hard in time with the older man, flooding slick even as his cunt is filled, filled, filled
(oh, he can't breathe for it)
and he sinks dazedly into the sweat-covered sheets and clothes that surround them, glowing eyes hazed over with bliss. There's a slight pressure at his abdomen, a visible hint of a bulge there as he starts lies back, panting helplessly into the space between them, the scent of him—of them—that fills the room. His heat rumbles in contented pleasure, happy to rest for a little while—so much better than the orgasms he gave himself in the bath before— ]
You're an Alpha— [ The words are slurred, hanging heavy on his tongue. ] I never—you're a human, so...
[ It seems that each of them had their own secrets after all. ]
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but he's not worried about that. he's not worried about anything right now, besides the hot pulse of dan heng's cunt all around him, still rhythmically massaging the length of his cock from knot to tip in a way that makes him feel dizzy and satisfied. panting into dan heng's shoulder, he is only barely able to hold himself up over him, muscles straining, but he doesn't want to let his weight collapse onto dan heng.
so instead, after catching his breath, he rolls onto his side, an arm hooked around dan heng's waist to pull him with him, keeping their bodies locked comfortably together. ]
.. yeah.
[ he says quietly, his voice rough, a little raw, thumb rubbing slow circles into the small of dan heng's back. ]
Not something I talk about often. Sorry, I should have warned you.
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There are things I could have told you, too, but didn't.
[ His voice is quiet, still almost slurred together with his content. The usual shame and disgust he feels around the topic seems distant, even to him. One of his normal small smiles finds his lips, although his one is more content, lazier, than the others have ever been. ]
Besides, it was a nice surprise. [ A thoughtful pause as he shakes his head. ] No, that's not right. It was better than nice. It... mm. I can't think of the word right now, but it was that.
[ He shakes his head again, a hint of color in his cheeks. Embarrassment. ]
I think I've gone stupid.
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You have, and it's cute.
[ he murmurs, eyes fond as he looks into dan heng's face while the two of them rest, still catching their breath, hearts pounding. their skin sticks together, dewy with sweat, yingxing's hair half fallen from its pin and sticking to his neck and shoulders. ]
You could do with being stupid more often, I think.
[ yingxing's grin is syrupy, gentle, his free arm curling beneath his head to act as a pillow. ]
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You're just saying that as an excuse to do this more often.
[ Not that he's complaining. He reaches up, brushing back the hair sticking to Yingxing's skin, and the smallest of frowns finds his expression, lips part in a silent thought—and close again for a moment as he processes, decides.
After a moment, he says, his voice quiet: ]
My heat is going to get worse over the next day or so, I think. So I... before it does, I should tell you. While I can.
[ Oh, he's bad at this. ]
March bought the wristband for me because I wanted it. It had nothing to do with her. I... I have wanted this for a long time now.
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I know.
[ he says gently, his eyes glinting with mischief, but mostly fondness. ]
It was pretty obvious, hm?
[ at least it was to yingxing. but he's dealt with enough fans with enormous crushes to know what it looks like, even when people try to hide it. lifting his hand, he rests a knuckle beneath dan heng's chin, the pad of his thumb smoothing along the line of his jaw. ]
But I like it. I like you.
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He relaxes into that touch, even as he continues to smooth the older man's hair away from his face. ]
Okay. I. That's good.
[ Internally, he pulls a face at how awkward he sounds, but there's nothing he can do about it now. ]
I just wanted to make sure you knew first, because... this is my first heat— [ he doesn't really remember confessing it to the other earlier when he was out of his mind ] —but everything I've read says that they get worse before they get better.
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Mm. Well, it'll probably be tempered a little bit by the fact that you've got me. Trying to go through it alone would've probably driven you insane, so.. I'm glad you're here.
[ his arm slings back around dan heng's waist, keeping him scooped close despite how overheated he feels. this afterglow is sweet, and he'd like to bask in it for as long as he can. ]
Too bad I couldn't have taken you on a date first, but.. I'll make it up to you, hmm?
[ maybe they're doing things a little out of order, but that's all right. they'll make it work. ]
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He relaxes into Yingxing's arms, lets himself just be. ]
I'm glad I'm here too.
[ A wild, blind decision made in the insanity of heat sickness—he doesn't know why it was here he chose, but he's glad it was. When Yingxing's arm slips around his waist, he uses the opportunity to curl himself in closer, taking in a breath of the other's scent, sweat-drenched and softened by his own sex. ]
A date might have been difficult anyway, what with who you are, and who I am, and..
[ He falls silent for a moment, attention drifting to where he can still feel the other's knot locked tight inside him, keeping him so pleasantly, blissfully full, the sensation soured only by that same discomfort that settles within him every time he looks in a mirror. ]
My body. It doesn't bother you?
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and then dan heng begins to talk, to say things that have yingxing's brow tightening with concern. ]
No, it doesn't. Why should it?
[ he doesn't know dan heng's particular struggle, can't relate to it personally, but he's had trans friends, he knows how difficult it can be, how the dysphoria can threaten to eat you alive. he doesn't envy him. it's not the same thing, but he can understand, to a degree, what it feels like to not like who you see in the mirror. ]
You're gorgeous, like this, or with your other look - it doesn't matter to me.
[ and he's not going to complain about good pussy, ever. ]
I guess that's another reason you wear that disguise?
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To the question: ]
Right. I bind my chest anyway, but at first, it was just easier to change a lot of things at once. It was draining, but it helped me remember not to let the magic slip. Nowadays, it's almost like second nature. Most of the time, at least.
[ He doesn't bother mentioning the fact that it's long since slipped off, the heat making it too hard to maintain his focus. It's obvious to both of them anyway.
He does, however, stifle a yawn. With the other's knot still filling him and his body temporarily soothed, sleep is starting to coil itself around him again, his body craving rest that he doesn't quite want to take just yet. ]
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Whatever you need to do to feel comfortable in your body is what you need to do. Doesn't matter what I or anyone else thinks. Okay? You just be you.
[ his cute, perfect little self, all snuggled up in yingxing's arms. smiling into dan heng's hair, he takes in a deep, satisfying breath, closing his eyes and keeping him scooped in close. his knot is slowly beginning to go down, but it'll take some time, and they'll likely be asleep by the time it happens. cleanup can happen in the morning, then.
with a soft hum, yingxing presses a kiss to the crown of dan heng's head. ]
Get some rest.
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He has to be careful, doesn't he? Because he could fall in love with this man.
Still, he finds himself smiling as he curls in closer, allows himself to start to drift into that sleep, permission given by the other despite his initial attempt to stay awake. Quickly, sleep takes him, lulls him into its comforting embrace, and all those thoughts, worried and content and otherwise, are gone.
For someone as exhausted as he is, he wakes sooner than he should, a whole new pleasure aching under his skin. The sheets and clothes piled around them are wet, either from the fresh sweat lining his skin or the combination of their fluids that have seeped out from him now that Yingxing is no longer hard. The other is still pressed deep into him though, wrapped up close against him, deep in his own sleep, and—
Maybe he doesn't even have to wake him.
It's barely a thought that processes in his mind before his hips start to move, dragging himself against Yingxing, only half-awake himself but driven by the same need that has stirred in him since yesterday. And with the other wrapped around him, the answer is so obvious, so easy— ]
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gods. dan feng is going to eviscerate him when he finds out. and he will find out, sooner or later.
but yingxing will worry about that later, after this week is over and dan heng decides what exactly it is that he wants from him. from them. for now, he too soon drifts off, growing still as he falls back into a deep sleep.
it's not quite morning yet when dan heng stirs again, though yingxing does not - does not even wake when dan heng begins to move, sliding against him, needy and wanting. his body, however, responds appropriately, a low hum in the back of his throat as his cock twitches and stirs, beginning to fill out inside of him. it can't be helped, dan heng's cunt is perfect, warm and wet and hugging all around him..
ah, his dreams are, perhaps, growing a little more colorful. ]
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He's not really thinking though, not past the animalistic need of the thing, his heat continuing to drive him, push him to do things he wouldn't normally, would never have imagined doing, really.
And so the steady filling out of Yingxing's cock is met with a low groan into the older man's throat, an achy throb of his cunt at the thought of being tied to him with that knot once more, a mutter of a mindless apology into his skin as his hips continue to grind into the other, as Dan Heng starts to see those stars of pleasure all over again. ]
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